Friday, January 26, 2007

Social Realities

I watched two war-related films last week of January: Blood Diamond and Innocent Voices.

Brian and I watched Blood Diamond, Tuesday at Greenbelt 3. I thought it was just one of those Hollywood films that were too commercialized to be true and exaggerated beyond imagination but it wasn't. The film was about the blood diamond setting in Africa. It was referred to as blood diamond because people fight over the control of diamond mines to get money from the market. It was so bloody and brutal. I think I even battered Brian too much because of the graphic scenes. An example would be when one of the rebels cut down the right hand of a captured native so that native won't be able to vote *shudders* I don't want to spoil the film for those want to watch, though so I won't tell the whole story.

While watching the film, my desire to volunteer for the UN became alive again. Ever since high school, I wanted to go to war zones and help people. But then same as with any other "normal" people, I opted to finish a course that would get me a high-paying job (which didn't happen) and worked for an industry that concerns itself with earning lots of money.

In one of the scenes there, Leonardo DiCaprio said "I am where I'm supposed to be". Am I really where I'm supposed to be?

Then, Thursday, I went out with two close friends, Janice and Grace and watched Innocent Voices (Voces Innocentes). It's a film about the civil war at El Salvador during the 1980's. In this movie, boys as young as 12 years old were forced by the military to become soldiers. At an early age, they were exposed to gun shots and bombs every day of their lives. One of their options is to flee the country and go to the US for a chance at a better life. The Grandma there said "Those who leave struggle more. Those who fight stay."

As I look at these harsh realities, I wonder what are we doing to change all these? Do we just let it happen? As it is, a lot of the Filipino people are suffering from war too like in Mindanao and Cordillera. Do we just leave them to face all these?

These are all just questions that enter my mind now and then and yet... here I am still sitting in an air-conditioned room earning my meager salary and being apathetic of these social realities...

Saturday, January 20, 2007


As I entered the PCHRD office on a Saturday, nostalgia hit me really hard. I missed the office, its familiar surroundings, the people whom I've come to know the past 6 years, my cluttered desk, even my pc... everything.

You see, PCHRD is where I grew up. This is where I learned to deal with different kinds of people. I've encountered bossy, noisy, authoritative, annoying, quiet and sly people. But this is also where I found my second family. This is where the PCHRD Jologs started. It started with a few young RICUP staff then: Eyna, Misyel, Mayet, Lorena, Anya, Alex, Fred and me. Then later on, every new young employee became part of our family. And every year it just keeps on growing and growing.

But then things do change. As the saying goes, change is the only permanent thing in this world. We go our separate ways. We find greener pasture. We seek happiness elsewhere. We get better opportunities.

In this one-room office, I have shared so many memories with friends and loved-ones. Laughter at cubicles and each corner. Tears at the server room, also known as the confession room. And as I enter through the front door, all the memories came rushing back despite the silence, the stillness.

Many more will come and go and I will move on to other places but PCHRD will always remain special in my heart. And I know it does, too, with other Jologs out there.


Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Pampalipas Oras

I'm currently at my desk doing nothing. I'm new to my job, been here just two days past. I haven't been assigned anything yet. I've been waiting for my boss to assign me to a group.

So, anyway, while doing nothing, I'm here writing my first blog at Friendster. I used to have a blog but unfortunately it hasn't been updated for quite some time now. And I guess the entries there didn't really fit my current status right now *grins*.

This is my second job. Is this really how it works when you're new to a company? Or maybe because the company I'm currently in is still new so they are still groping their way around their operations?

What do you usually do when you're new to a company? The first day is the most boring and exciting day, I guess. When you come in to the office you feel so excited and giddy with anxiety. As soon as you get there, they let you read the company profile, sign up some forms that the HR needs, meet people in the office then sit at your desk and wait for your boss to tell you what to do. (I realized this must apply only to rank and file staff. I haven't had a managerial position yet so I don't know how they go about their first day at work.)

Now, I'm writing a blog. I didn't have anything else to do. I've been reading some tutorial stuff that I think is related to my work but I'm not really sure if I can use it. I've been chatting with my new officemates, too. But after some time you can't find anything to talk after all. Then again, I just met them so I haven't really discovered any common ground with them yet.

So this is how my first few days at my new company has gone. I do hope I'll have an assignment by tomorrow. Darn, I don't like doing nothing at all.