The Attacks

At some point, there's no turning back
I don't know how, I don't know why
One day, it started to come, taking a toll in my life
Trying not to feel imprisoned, trying to fight it off

Heart starts to pound, chest tightening
A simple thought triggers it,
Or a picture, or even something I've read
I don't know how, I don't know why

The need to control it, the need to relax
The need to settle this heart-racing moment
The need to just be in a void
The need to let it go

I don't know how, I don't know why
But these episodes just keep on coming back
There's no turning back; it's there, taking a toll in my life
Yet, I need to conquer it so it doesn't suck me dry