End of 2024 has taught me a lot about trusting God for provisions.
If you know me, I'm the kind of person who always plans and wants things to be in order (otherwise, known as a control freak 😅 ). I've always prided myself of how well I have taken good care of our finances. But there are just some events that derail things from what you plan.
There were some bad decisions and there were some selfish decisions. And then there were some unforeseen circumstances which took a big chunk of our resources. After all of these, well, we ended up with just the amount we need to get by, and less than what we used to have.
Every time I'm left with just a portion of our finances, there is worry at the back of my mind. Surprisingly, though, I don't worry as much. I remembered being in the same situation while we were still living in the Philippines. I got into a big fight with Manong because of our financial situation. Well, it was more of me lashing at him but you get the picture 😅 He confronted me about my being worrywart, which he said was totally unnecessary.
Every time we have to shell out resources, I would say, "Our funds are dwindling". Manong would then remind me, "God will provide". Indeed, God has never left me wanting! It's just me who always worry, thinking too far into the future. But the Lord has never forsaken me, nor has broken His promises to me. He is always there.
As I drank coffee today while looking outside our window, I saw these birds feeding on the fruits of our hedge. These conversations came back to mind, and then I remembered Matthew 6:25-34
Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
It really is just our stubbornness that brings us troubles. God has always assured me but time and time, I fail to remember His promises. And so, He reminded me.
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